This is a new blog. Actually i have created one, but I created this.
I'm not sure why i created this new blog.
In fact, no one will really read this, or notice.
Maybe.....just maybe, I really need someone notice this and read.
It's hard, i know. I know this very well.
But, I have still been hoping and waiting for someone, or anyone can understand me.
I think, it's harder.
No one is capable to understand the other, even oneself.
If people are capable to understand each other, this world will have not been full of loneliness.
I'm all by myself...................
This is ironic.
I do want people to understand me.
But i scare people to understand me.
I scare that after knowing who I really am, they'll leave me behind.
They'll think that I'm not good for them.
I'm always pretending someone I'm not.
I'm tired of pretending.
Yes, I'm tired of that.
I'M WHO I AM
Will you accept the real me?
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fine ... this is my first time i read your blog.. cos you wont publish it b4 ~ as i told you b4 .. you are really weird .. sometime i really can feel that you really need a person to care about you ... but you always pretend like you need not anyone to care .. you dun care ... you dun mind ... nothing is important for you .. let's said "HE" ba .. maybe i guess wrong .. you want him to care about you ... you care what he did and what he said to you .. but you must always pretend like you dun care ... ask me dun mention about him .. but in your mind always thinking of him .. you wanted to know what he did ... where was him ... and somemore with who .. maybe i guess wrong .... but hope you dun pretend anymore ... i dun like those ppl ..
ReplyDeletethat's my feel ... maybe i were wrong ... dun blame me ...
ReplyDeleteYes, you're right. Actually I'm just being ridiculous. I'm just utterly absurd. I do crave people company. But it always evades me. I do care about him. I do angry with him. But it has already past. I'm not care as much as before. Now, he's nothing. I'm not even notice him. However, he do exist. I can't fool myself completely. And I don't want things are getting worse. Just leave it there. I won't try to do anything to save or whatever. Just leave it there. He wanna say hi, then I'll wave back. If he don't want, then he just merely a "thing". Since you said you know me, then you should be know me well. If I want, I can be very coldness. Why should I care? What is he to me? Nothing.
ReplyDeletei`m wondering who is the most important people in your mind ... except your family .. mean among your frenz .. HE, SHE, HE or HE? I really hope i can know who is the lucky person ......
ReplyDeleteI'm quite curious that what makes you think those people are lucky? Can't understand at all. In fact, I don't know who is important to me. That's human nature, always don't know what's important until they're gone.
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