NOT A FRIEND

There's not a must.
They really don't have to call me out.
Okay, that's fine. I have to accept this.
I'm not important. That's what I always know.
I should not get mad at it. Ya, I really should not.
Maybe, I really don't have to treat them as a friend when they're not treating me this way.
No need to waste my time on them.


Okay, I've decided.
They're not important!!

GATHERING

Yesterday was the gathering.
Maybe, it's not what i was expecting.
I was not in the mood.
I know the reason so well.
That thing influenced my mood.
I hate like this.
I don't like anything that can influence me.
I'm so stupid.
I should not get influenced by that.

I won't trust anything like that anymore.
I think, to be perfectly true, I won't trust him again!!

LUNAR NEW YEAR

Chinese New Year, is a great chance for us to gather.
Really can meet with many friends.
After graduation, quite hard for us to gather.
Everyone is busy with their own things.
We have different life.
We have different friends.
This holiday, really really a good chance to see everyone.
Waiting for the gathering -- 28th January 2009

TEN YEARS

Ping just told me something, I was so shocked and surprised about that.
It has been 10 years since we have known each other.
WOW!!!
Since 1999 ~ 2008.
It has been 10 years!!!!
Amazing!!!
We still keep in touch.
Be perfectly honest, secondary friends always more important.
And the friendship can be last for a long ~~~~~~~ time.
I honestly hope that, our friendship will be last forever~~~~~~~~~

I love you all.

RAINY DAY

I like to walk in the rain. Feel good. However, so less for my chance to do so. Hence, I like to stay at home alone. I can do whatever I like. I can turn up the music volume so loud. I can just sit there and do nothing. Anything..........

Alone at home. Rainy day. That's the time I enjoy the most. Listen the rain drop tap against the roof. Do nothing. I'm happy. This will be my the greastest day. Most of the time, sunny day makes me down. I don't know why. Maybe, I'm a freak. Walk in the rain. That's what I always want to do. I've done that once, the time I stayed in KL. I walked alone in the rain with cigaratte. WOW, that's so good! Also, one night, I standed in the rain. Just standed there. Enjoy the rain.

I've been hoping where the place I am, is a place which will rain everyday. Few hours in a day. Drizzle will be enough.

Rain rain...... rainy day.

BLOGS

I like to read other blogs.
Every night, I'll key in those blog addressed in the search bar.
I'm happy when people update their blog.
I'm disappointed when they're not (most of the time).
Sometimes, I'm confuse.
I don't know whether I'm interested in those blogs, or I just purely too bored.
However, I've enjoyed reading their blogs.

I've found that, I always blog at night.
Maybe, this is a habit.
I'll sign in everyday, even I don't blog.
Just sign in, then sign out.
HAHA, I'm a weirdo.
I'm not sure what I'm waiting for.
I'm not sure what I'm expecting.
HAHA, I'm a weirdo indeed, no doubt.

RIDICULOUS

You're being ridiculous!!


Okay, that's human nature.
We always just see others' mistakes, but ourselves.
What we've done, what we've said, might have hurt someone.
Yet, most of the time, we utterly don't know.
We just know to blame others, but never see what we've done.

I'll accept the blame.
It's fine.
I'm used to it.

Whatever!!

UNEVENTFUL

It has been a while since I've posted.
Today is 9 January 2009.
WOW!!
Time is flying.
One week is past.
2 more weeks to go, then CNY.
After that, I have to start looking for job.
I'm really worry about that.
Feel like escaping it.
But it's not something I can run away.
Trying to convince myself.
It's not that difficult.
It won't be a problem.
Everyone has to face to, sooner or later.
Hoping the process won't be tough.
Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.
I always trust this.
And I have to trust myself.
I can do it.
Yes, I can!!

LOST SLEEP

I try so hard to sleep, but it evades me. That is why at this time, I'm still sitting in front of my PC and posting now.

Actually, I've been waiting for the whole day. Erm........but now, I'm pretty sure that I'm just wasting my time. Maybe, I should give up now. I should stop this stupidity behavior. I should used to it already. I know it so well -- promise meant to be broken. What am I expecting? Really, I'm damn stupid. Just try not to think about it. This should not bother me.




2 January 2009.
Second day of 2009.
I've wasted my first day of the new year on stupid stuff.
Today will be another uneventful day,
just the same as every other day.
Maybe....tonight will get a chance to hang out with some friends.
Don't know, just wait for tonight.
However, better don't expect anything.
Don't...........

......................

I know I'm getting the schedule of my days and nights reverse.
I used to stay late.
I feel so good when there's just only me.
I'm tired actually, but don't feel like sleeping.
What am I waiting for? or expecting?
I don't know.

This is a long holiday.
I really have been hoping that this will be a endless holiday.
I don't mind to stay at home.
I don't mind to do nothing everyday.
Unfortunately, my mum do mind.
I am just same as other normal people.
Graduate -----> getting a job -----> end of my life.
That's life all about, sad to know that.



Don't feel really fine.
Occasions are becoming more and more meaningless to me.
Nothing special now.
He really shouldn't have brought that up.
That's something I try so hard not to mention.
Not just not now, but not ever.
Maybe I've overly sensitive about that.
But it doesn't matter now.
I'm not care as much as before.
Yes, nothing important now.
Glad to know that.
Really..................................................................

END........START........

T_HIRTY F_IRST D_AY O_F DECEMBER

Means this is the end of 2008.

Time is flying.

Before I have realized what I've been doing in 2008, it has already come to an end.

Few more minutes, 1 January 2009 is coming.

And I'm sitting in front of PC and posting!!

WOW!! Great!!

I'm alone at home while all my friends having fun now.

There's a little bit empty inside my chest.

Well, this is my choice.

Between loneliness and hang out with friends, I've chosen stay alone.

Okay, I'll enjoy this moment. Just like others who are enjoying their fun.

One more minute..................

HAPPY NEW YEAR